One year ago today, was the last day I would ever see my mom awake. After her last respiratory crash, her kidneys were failing, and she was fighting an infection on top of aspiration pneumonia. Her medical team consisted of an Internal Medicine Physician, Neurologist, Infectious Disease, and Pulmonologist. The damage her body was experiencing […]
This is a building that has been standing in Timpson, TX since before I was born. For 30 days, my life consisted of traveling back and forth between my childhood and my adulthood. I am moved every time I think about Timpson. I grew up knowing everyone. My mom and I may have had a […]
When the day was upon us, it was time to hug my husband good-bye so he could go back to work and comfort our kiddos. I did the usual routine; spoke to the charge nurse about therapy, then the doctor about any changes in tests they have run since I was last on site, and […]
One year ago today, I would often look up and the day would be slipping away. So I tried to capture the moments that I always seemed to be chasing. I never complained though. The truth is, I actually enjoy chaos and struggle. I don’t look for it, but I respect it greatly when it […]
After the first late night phone call letting us know my mom may not wake up… we were quite amazed that her eyes were open within the next 24 hours. Over a total of 36 hours away from her strokes, she was able to move her legs. How we both took that success for granted. […]
We were fortunate to have space between knowing the time was coming and the time itself. Most people do not get that time and I am truly thankful we had it. With my daddy, I alienated myself from everyone. With him, I flipped my humanity switch off and went on a journey of self destruction […]
I am not sure why I have a ridiculous amount of amazing human beings in my life. I have the natural tendency to be selfish, narrow minded and have no fear in allowing people who have too much drama to be set free to dramatize the life of someone else. My tolerance for BS is […]
My mom had a vibrant life. She was a world traveller. She always told me she was one of the first women to get a driver’s license in Abu Dhabi and one of my favorite stories is the time she was kicked out of Milan, Italy because she was having way too much fun. One […]
Although I was a composed mess, there were some powerhouse wisdom givers on this journey with me. In Fall 2017, when mom was Careflighted to Houston, we drove 4 hours to east Texas, signed my first DNR for the year, put her on a helicopter and drove to Houston to meet her. We would not […]
People often are afraid to confront those forged into the trenches of grief. People want to say the right thing and do the right thing so they can help ‘fix’ what is happening. The truth is, the best advice, and the most extravagant gesture will not ‘fix’ a thing, nor should it. Don’t worry about […]
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