Crawfish, Me & The Welded Time Machine

Meet one of my favorite things in the world. This is a cooker, welded by my dad in the late 80s, early 90s. He started cooking crawfish for my birthday when I was 15. I didn’t like crawfish at the time, but he would simply say ‘sometimes it’s about feedin’ people little’n’. To a spoiled […]

Grief | The Birthday Crasher

For the last 2 years, I’ve gotten a little sad around my birthday. Last year I was sad thinking about me, as a baby, in a hospital for 5 days before anyone ever picked me up. I found comfort in knowing I was loved and I belonged to someone during that time, but it made […]

Grief | The Comedian Part II

I love an epically awkward situation. I enjoy it SO much, I didn’t even ask anyone to go with me to pick up my mom’s ashes. I even remember getting in the car, cranking it, and saying ‘Let’s go pick up a body’, laughing because how many times do you get to say that?! I […]

Grief | The Love Connector

I began attending Pathway Church in 2009. When I began attending, that’s all I wanted was to attend. I didn’t want to grow in my faith or follow a God I didn’t understand. I simply wanted some ‘one’ or some ‘thing’ to help us raise our kids. I began serving and after feeling like I […]

Grief | The Back Burner

Finals and life happened. So as we all do, grief was placed on the back burner. Milestones have been flying by accompanied by two kids who miss their Nana dearly. Now that the pace is somewhat manageable. Here’s a couple of surprises that grief taught me about me. 1. There is healing in hearing your […]

Grief | The Neighbor

Today is another moment marker. One year ago today, Addie was baptized. It’s during joy-filled days that I am reminded that grief will always be our neighbor. It comes and goes, sometimes close by and sometimes so silent I forget it’s there. Aside from the obvious excited this anniversary brings, there is also a thread […]

Grief | The Silent Rebel

I had to slow my grief journey down to leave room to process.  When I don’t allow grief the space to move around in me, I also keep it from moving OUT of me. During this time, a question came up… How do we KNOW if we have truly grieved our loved one versus avoided […]

Grief | The Sidekick

5 States, 8 Cities, 3 Flights When the pace is high, it’s important to soak in every moment, because there are some seasons you won’t get a redo. From the streets of my childhood, family kitchens of New Jersey, firsts in New York, officially launching a new path in Oklahoma, Karaoke in Louisiana, and eventually […]

Grief | The Drive Home

The work of cleaning and clearing an apartment full of my mom’s lifelong treasures was done in a matter of days. I paused when I needed to and allow grief to do its thing every time I encountered it. I had a lot of heavy emotions but I had peace. When I climbed in to […]