We were fortunate to have space between knowing the time was coming and the time itself. Most people do not get that time and I am truly thankful we had it. With my daddy, I alienated myself from everyone. With him, I flipped my humanity switch off and went on a journey of self destruction […]
I have climbed these steps many times with a troubled heart. After mom’s first respiratory crash and we learned that plaque from her carotid artery broke loose and showered her brain, all we could do was wait. We were at the mercy of damage at this point. I remember sitting in the bay after a […]
I am not sure why I have a ridiculous amount of amazing human beings in my life. I have the natural tendency to be selfish, narrow minded and have no fear in allowing people who have too much drama to be set free to dramatize the life of someone else. My tolerance for BS is […]
My mom had a vibrant life. She was a world traveller. She always told me she was one of the first women to get a driver’s license in Abu Dhabi and one of my favorite stories is the time she was kicked out of Milan, Italy because she was having way too much fun. One […]
Although I was a composed mess, there were some powerhouse wisdom givers on this journey with me. In Fall 2017, when mom was Careflighted to Houston, we drove 4 hours to east Texas, signed my first DNR for the year, put her on a helicopter and drove to Houston to meet her. We would not […]
People often are afraid to confront those forged into the trenches of grief. People want to say the right thing and do the right thing so they can help ‘fix’ what is happening. The truth is, the best advice, and the most extravagant gesture will not ‘fix’ a thing, nor should it. Don’t worry about […]
To be honest. I was afraid I would feel nothing when this day came. I am thankful to keep learning fear is a liar. For decades I have been guarded, bitter, and at times… vengeful when it came to my mom. The thoughts I had of her before 2018 may have been true, but they […]
My mom always had something to say. Even when she had the emergency in Fall 2017 that would mark her last year of life, she had SO much to say, we had to sedate her in order to Careflight her 4 hours to Houston. The reality of her not speaking the first 12 hours I […]
Looking back, I know HOW we made it… but the journey was INSANE. We made it all work. Marriage, parenting, caregiving, student, employee and traveler. We were intentional about having fun when the kids were en route with us, thank you Buccee’s; and the kids got to stay in their first B&B. Speaking of, this […]
My mom always knew how to wear make-up, clothes, and accessories. She was known as ‘Weazer’ to those closest to her and my friends always called her Mama Anne. Her heart was huge, and her love was overbearing. We had a rough decade or 2, but I know that I am the luckiest adopted daughter […]
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